Sorry I’ve been MIA, life has been chaotic and it’s been difficult to juggle everything at once. If you’re still with me – THANK YOU. Thank you for your support – I promise to do better. Writing is very much a therapy for me and I am glad to be getting back into the groove of things…
So many times I would like to have gone back in time and told that scared girl that things would turn out perfectly. That life is messy and beautiful all at the same time. That the OCD would get better.
That things sometimes come to an end and it isn’t the end of the world. I wish I could give her all of the courage I have managed to have over the years. I’ve talked about this A LOT with my bff. How, when you’re a kid everything feels CATASTROPHIC. That’s because it is, think about it, you aren’t big enough to understand this isn’t the end of the world. You just feel like it is.
I was never the confident girl in high school. I was always in “awe” of that girl. It wasn’t until my adult years that I realized how much I’d overcome.
Life has given me challenges and I’ve always had to rise above them – each time learning something new about life and myself during the process. I’m glad I made it through those difficult years where it seemed the world was always out to get me. I’m glad I grew thick skin and finally grew into my own person.
In many ways, I’m still that kid – second guessing everything and hoping for the best. Maybe ‘she’ will always be a part of me – so if I could tell my former self one thing.. it’d be that life is beautiful and it gets better, I promise.
If you’re going through a tough time right now, I’m sorry. It gets better, sometimes taking a deep breath really does help. I’m always here to listen..
Sending all my love –