Dear new and improved me

Hi, I hope we can be friends. You don’t know me yet, but I want to know you. For me weight loss has been so much more than the number on the scale. It’s been life changing – I know I can’t go back to who I was. I can’t go back to my old ways. I don’t want to be ‘her’ anymore. She’s a bitch though and she’ll try to fuck this up somehow.

I’m really enjoying working out and not wanting to throw up. Every work out no matter how small is a tiny victory, one I relish in. I love this new routine, I’ll admit I was hesitant at first but man does it feel good. This time feels different, like I finally feel like I have my shit together.

I still struggle though, like an addict looking for it’s next fix; food is MY drug. I LOVE it. Everyone has their vice and food is definitely mine. Some people forget to eat, nope – not me.. my day is planned around “eating”. I’ve learned to have a healthier relationship with it – to not indulge as much. To eat until I feel satisfied instead of gorging my way through it all. Two words: PORTION CONTROL.

It’s funny how when you start to take things slow you actually really ENJOY your food. You discover new foods and realize FOOD no longer has a power over you.

I have always had issues with my weight. For once I am not focused on the number on the scale as much I am focused on my overall progress. It’s invigorating. So new and improved me, sit back and relax. I hope to have you here for the remainder of my stay.

I hope to prove to you that I CAN and WILL do this.

With love,

Ps. How are YOU doing on your fitness journey? I thought it was important to write it all down. To write a letter to myself to remind “myself” why I started this in the first place.

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2 thoughts on “Dear new and improved me

  1. I’m the complete opposite I was always thin and I always wanted to have a fuller body shape. That’s was until I had my second child. After my son I was able to bounce back but not with my daughter. The crazy part is I don’t enjoy eating. I’ve Gained weight and I’m sure most would think I over eat or heat unhealthy. Well I don’t after visiting a nutritionist because I couldn’t understand why my weight wasn’t budgeting it came down to I don’t enough. My body is starving and whatever I do it it stores it because it does not know when I’ll feed it again. I couldn’t understand that. After being put on a timed east I g schedule I saw a difference , I started to loose weight. It was short lived because for me eating throughout the day was hard to maintain. Having snacks in the middle of the day ( especially when I was out ) was hard to remember because it’s not a part of my life. Eating when not necessarily hungry is such a weird thing. Sure enough the weight came back. I’m tired of sometimes seeing myself but not recognizing myself and I’m working hard to find a method that works for me long term. A daily component not a seasonal one. I’m working close with my dr.’s to make sure I don’t have any hormonal imbalances that are interfering with my attempts to loose weight.
    I’m happy to see that you have found a true method to a healthy lifestyle. Keep up the good work.

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    • Wow, Jessica!! Forget to eat, I could never! My life has always been about food, I enjoy it too much. Thanks for sharing, I will say now that I am eating more.. it was weird at first. The snacks do give me energy and keep me from overeating at my next meal. It involves a lot of preparation though. I hope you find something that works for you so you can get back on track.. it’s terrible when you don’t feel well. As always, thank you for your kind words..

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